maybe we need to open the smoke hole
by bam
there’s a siberian myth that when you close the smoke hole in a reindeer-hide tent — that orifice opening up to the sky — God can’t see in anymore. when you close the smoke hole, you break the connection to the divine — to the heavens and clouds and stars in the sky.*
when you close the smoke hole, you go mad in the whirl of unending toxic vapors.
maybe the world needs to go quiet to open the smoke hole.
have you heard that dolphins are once again romping in the waters off venice? (the oversized — dare we say obscene — cruise ships are gone.) blue skies and birdsong are back in parts of china that hadn’t seen them or heard them for years. (factories gone silent, cars parked at the curbs; pollution cut off at the knees.)
the earth, amid a pandemic, is healing. you might say it’s the soul that’s pushed its way to the fore.
have you noticed how your inbox is full of invitations from monks and museums and the metropolitan opera? a journal i love — emergence magazine — is, like so many rushing into the abyss, offering “free of charge, online sessions [that] will include: a book club that will meet online once a week, virtual fireside chats with Emergence contributors, a nature journaling course, and facilitated workshops and discussions.”
last night i joined in meditation with a monk and his singbowls at glastonbury abbey on boston’s south shore — along with two dozen soulful others whose faces appeared in squat boxes at the top of the screen, and who were strewn all across the continent. (singbowls originated in the himalayas more than 2,000 years ago, and the sound that rises from the mallet gliding the rim of a metallic bowl is scientifically documented to change our brain waves, and so is thought to be healing and soothing and all of those “ings” we need right now.)
the other morning i sat at my kitchen table, sipping my coffee, watching the birds at the feeder, while the priest at my church spoke of the samaritan woman during the sermon of sunday morning liturgy. last night, my priest popped in again, and mentioned that rather than singing the birthday song twice as she washes her hands, she likes to recite the jewish blessing for the washing of hands (it’s 10 seconds, so repeat twice): “Blessed are you, O Lord, our God, King of the Universe, who has sanctified us through your commandments and has commanded us concerning the washing of hands.”
there are many, many hours to fill in the space between stepping into my haz-mat attire and bravely boldly facing the grocery stores aisles where, more often than not, whole aisles are cleared, picked over as if a cotton field in the wake of the weevil. and so, being human, we itch to find ways to fill those hours.
i say, take this time and seize it: pick up a rake, if you have one idling in the garage or the shed. tenderly pull back the winter’s detritus, marvel at the tender green nubs insistently pushing through the crust of the earth. listen to the birdsong, now that the soundtrack of cars and most trucks (save for the poor amazon delivery squad), have gone silent.
one of my most beloved friends is teaching me, via links to websites and a vat of bubbling goo she’s promised to leave on my stoop, how to befriend that curious alchemical mix of flour and water and floating-by spores (how lovely to think of a wafting microbe as friend and not foe in these red-ringed times) called sourdough starter. there’s something eternally hopeful about the notion of make-your-own yeast, and bake-your-own breakfast.
last night, the college kid among us pulled out a board game, fired up his laptop to connect with his faraway brother, and together — through the wizardry of this wireless age — we all played round after round of word games. when’s the last time we all huddled at the kitchen table to put our collective heads together in game?
i’m making it my most important job to stitch the normal into these days, and to take it up a notch and embroider the moments with whatever delights and high-order embellishments i can muster: i’m tossing lavender packets into the dryer so clean sheets smell like provence herb gardens. i’m cracking open packets of biscuits, cranking the oven, filling the house with buttery inhalations. defrosting stews long tossed to the back of the freezer. the soul when its gasping for air is especially receptive to beauty.
and in between the attempts to make this time something of a break from the madness, i’m paying closest attention to the unbridled kindnesses, to the light that insists on seeping through the cracks.
maybe the smoke hole is opening.
maybe we’re finally noticing how hungry our souls have become. seek vigil not isolation, might be our watch phrase. don’t cut yourself off from the marvelous. from the undeniably beautiful. from the blessed.
open your eyes and your heart, the heavens are beckoning in ways never ever imagined. shabbat is upon us. uninterrupted.
enter in peace.
how are you keeping open the smoke hole?
from time to time across the week, i will bring delicious morsels here to the virtual kitchen table. you’re welcome to do the same….as we join hearts and forge on together. we will emerge and be stronger for seeing the world through new smoke-cleared eyes…..
*credit to martin shaw, mythologist and storyteller from devon, england, (extolled as “a thirteenth-century troubadour dropped into our midst”) for bringing the smoke-hole myth to my attention…..

1905 Scientific American, documenting Siberian wilderness culture
Once again a marvelous reading for our souls… thank you for sharing your wonderful wisdom
Big virtual 🤗 hug
bless you!
I had seen that the dolphins were back in the canals of Venice and sent the link to Sarah who honeymooned in Italy last summer. Venice was her favorite city.
I read a comment somewhere that Mother Nature has hit the reset button.
And while I’m mindful of this Sabbath moment, I’m also mindful that many of us have seen our retirement funds shrink just as we were getting ready to retire. Another reset, I suppose.
true, true, dear hh. the shrinking certainly has happened here (though i’m not looking at the damage). i am straining to focus on the light to keep myself from being swallowed whole. there have been moments, a few days ago especially, when i kept hoping i’d wake up from this and shake off the unimaginable script. sending extra tight squeeze. xoxo
Thank you for your calming voice. While there is a certain level of panic due to so many unknowns, it has been rather amazing to see all the gestures of kindness and goodwill that are happening. I have resisted looking at the retirement accounts. Fortunately no plans to retire in the immediate future!
I’m keeping busy with my knitting and the knitting community already had a fabulous online presence so it’s easy to stay connected with my tribe! Maybe now my family will stop commenting on my lifetime supply of yarn. I could happily shelter in place for a looong time.
Stay well and a virtual hug to you.
ha! i loved your comment about lifetime supply, because at our house my “tendency” to sometimes stock my shelves in doubles or triples suddenly looks prescient instead of paranoid! my sweet blair said he saw a story somewhere about the vindication of stocker-uppers who now don’t need to rush out to fill their carts.
bless you and your knitting and purling, xoxoxoxoxo
Beautiful reflection—just the right message! Thank you!
xoxoxo thank YOU!
I’m loving your quiet words during these turbulent times, BAM! Thanks for sharing your thoughts. Earlier this week my husband and I decided to take a walk every day, get out of the house, get some fresh air. We’re home from our walk today, and it wasn’t easy considering the wind chill! But, it is amazing what you see and hear in the usually busy neighborhood. So many plants are sending their green heads out of the ground, desperately trying to be part of the landscape again. And the birds! I know it’s their time to be out, but their calls seem louder than usual. I think it’s up to all of us to create ways to be happy right now, to find something other than the news to occupy our minds. I’m trying to do just that! Sending many wishes to all that you remain healthy! We will get through this!
we will be sure to spy the first signs of unfurling vernal impulse this year. as i vow to crouch down low to inspect every single day, plenty of times a day….it seems the earth is doing its best to buffer us, to hold us in its exuberant embrace…..
Our granddaughter Lily (all of her tiny three year old self) did just that on our walk this week to look for flowers. We found a very tiny little blossoming bit of yellow flowers all by their lonesome and brave selves. Lily stopped, laid herself full out, kissed them and said “Ohhhh! I love you baby yellow flowers!” This it the spirit I want to hold and the kind of love I want in my life everyday. It is out there. We just need to pay attention like Lily…who is well named. 😉
Ohhhhh! I love the Lily prayer, and promise to follow her lead…..❤️❤️❤️
Hello my B, sharing this beautiful piece with my family! A lovely pause! Thinking of you all and of course your mom! Sending love! xoxo
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sending love north of the now-closed border! xoxoxoxox
listen to martin shaw tell a story of kindness and Fox Woman Dreaming (you’ll be lulled into a magical place….):
https://charleseisenstein.org/podcasts/new-and-ancient-story-podcast/in-conversation-with-martin-shaw-e19/
note, too, the mention of what the irish term “radiant contentment…” may we all carve out radiant contentment in these tough times….
here’s a beauty beyond beauties: “On the Road with Thomas Merton,” an essay and film, from our friends at Emergence, writer Fred Bahnson and filmmaker Jeremy Sifters.
https://emergencemagazine.org/story/on-the-road-with-thomas-merton/
In May 1968, Christian mystic Thomas Merton undertook a pilgrimage to the American West. Fifty years later, filmmaker Jeremy Seifert and writer Fred Bahnson set out to follow Merton’s path, retracing the monk’s journey across the landscape. Amid stunning backdrops of ocean, redwood, and canyon, the film features the faces and voices of people Merton encountered. The essay offers a more intimate meditation on Merton’s life and the relevance of the spiritual journey today.
I love the thought of prayers wafting skyward, spreading out, soaring into the universe. My prayers have been constant and faithful as of late…the old standards: the rosary and the memorare along with good old St. Francis, St. Dymphna and St. Monica. My stock of tea lights is full and ready.
Carolyn Myss, mystic and author is hosting the Rosary Circle via Facebook. People gather from all over the world at 3:00 CST on Fridays and pray together. Prayer of all faiths and beads are welcome. https://www.myss.com/all-of-us-are-on-the-same-journey-video/ This morning, before checking emaiI I plucked Mother Prayer out of my chair side pile and reread the last chapter on momma prayer which soothed my anxious morning. Went to get my coffee and find all these marvelous thoughts here. Grace fills our days in all kinds of ways. From my heart to yours as I am settled into the deep woods and shores of Michigan. Amen and be safe and well. Thanks Bam for continually providing a beautiful table for gathering. We have had this virtual thing down for a long time!
I thought this morning how grateful I am that we carved out this quiet sacred space so long ago now. Who would have thought a dozen years ago we were setting the table for pandemic preparedness? And so we carry on, as we always have, our intentions amplified, our need for and leaning upon each other intensified. I love knowing you’re in the woods and along the shore where the rhythms of the lake rinse and rinse and fill in again and again. Love from window nook to yours….xox
How wonderful to read your words today, at the end of this new and unsettling week. The Taize community has been streaming their evening prayer service live through Facebook (https://www.facebook.com/taize – daily at 3:30pm Eastern). It has been a lovely blessing to pause for 30 minutes each afternoon for prayer, often with 4000+ others from around the world. Wishing you well…
amazing the ways human nature will not be stifled. the spirit reaches for the light, even when the light is all but occluded. lovely to hear from you. thank you for wandering over to the table…..that’s wild — 4,000 heads bent in prayer, all across the world. wow. will check it out. thank you. xoxox
Thank you, Barbara, for making my day hopeful in this sad time. I always come and pull up a chair when I feel sad. You, of course, brighten my day.
oh, dear katherine, so good to hear from you! my big adventure today is trying to make sourdough bread. and chasing away a sore throat. i’m sure it’s a plain old garden variety, so nothing to worry about. hope kindness finds you today. sending a big faraway hug! xox
Thank you, dear B, and all of you gathered in this beautiful space, for words of peace and comfort. I am beyond grateful for our connection here. Sending a greeting to each of you as we collectively shelter at home. Together, we can do this. May love and light surround us all. Pax et bonum– peace and all good. xx
pax et bonum: love that! maybe someone could embroider that on a T-shirt!!! it is such a good thing that the table is set, and the chairs are always at the ready. sending peace and calm across the miles. and love, too. xoxoxo