susurrations: the blessed rinse of a summer morning’s rain
it came without throat clearing. no rumble off in the distance. no dark skies, foretelling. in fact, the golden orb of sun was rising through the branches of the pines.
but there it was, just beyond the screen, the back door opened to welcome in the summer morning’s offerings.
a drip. a drop. a plop. another plop, plop, plop.
the susurrations of a summer morning’s rains.
the ping that hit the skylight confirmed it: the heavens had sprung the softest, lulling-est leak.
and all at once, i felt my shoulders sigh. heard a gentle whoof of air bellow out my lips. it felt, once again, as if God almighty had reached long arms through the clouds, applied mighty finger tips to brow, and began to make the little circles on the plane above my eyes, the ones that always, always rinse away the worries.
thank you, i whispered, and whisper still, as the gentle benediction of the summer rain soothes on.
i’d been up early, as i’ve been of late; out from under the sheets once the 5 blinked onto the clock’s face beside my bed. i was fumbling for the coffee beans, had already opened the screen door to let in the morning air and the first dabs of light soaking into the inky dome of waning night.
and that’s when the first plop dropped. and i perked my ears. perked my soul, too. starting feeling not so all alone in the dim light of my kitchen ministrations. i walked to the door, inspected the brick walk, and sure enough, the water spots spread like chicken pox on a baby’s bum.
now, i’m 300-percent certain that my strung-out nerves did not figure into the morning’s celestial weather convocation. no one made a motion to be sure to crank the faucet just above my house, in hopes of dousing the wildfires that threatened to scorch my inner wiring. but there are moments when you discard all reason, and you roll with the whimsy that the rains were meant for you. that someone somehow knew just the meteorological prescription for your morning’s maladies.
so i dodged the raindrops, and wandered out to my summer porch, where the wicker chair offers the best perch for taking in the surround-sound of a morning’s wash. a gentle rumble or two finally did announce that this rain was real, and might linger for awhile.
and instead of worrying about the kid whose mama had called last night to tell me about the whopping case of head critters just discovered at her house and on her kid’s head (a head that had been in close proximity to my own kid’s, just the night before), and instead of worrying about the picture show that might or might not work at my little one’s dance party, and instead of worrying about whether my little guy might collapse into a dead faint as he gets up to chant the Torah (so very terrified is he of this call to the bimah, the Hebrew word for ‘altar’), i sat and soaked up the susurrations of the summer’s rain.
in between the plops, i heard a holy whisper: be not afraid. the heavens surround you, hold you, will not let you wobble.
and then, a final psssst, and this: might not be a bad idea to douse yourself in tea tree oil, the sure combatant for those creepy-crawly things that, at the mere mention of their existence, make your hairs stand on end.
amen to summer rains, and end-of-august worries, as the school year races toward us, as the long-awaited bar mitzvah is upon us, and our old house fills with beloved people who love us enough to interrupt their regularly scheduled programming to strap on seat belts and fly our way. i figured today might be better than tomorrow, friday, for tap-tapping at the keyboard, and then the rain came and tickled my brain. i’ll be changing sheets, and choreographing airport runs tomorrow morning, and you needn’t listen in on all that noise. next time i type here, one boy will be back to college, and eighth grade will have begun for another. i’ll be home alone, and the to-do list won’t be quite so long. though, just the other side of this bar mitzvah, that blessed book, Slowing Time, promises to demand my attentions.
till then, the only prayer request that matters: dear God, please keep T’s knees from buckling, and may his chanting be heard all the way to new jersey, where his beloved grandpa, who cannot be among the flock who flies here, will be listening with all his blessed heart.
in one of the not-uncommon miracles that happens at the chair, within seconds of posting what i wrote above, about the rains rinsing my silly little woes, i found a note from my beloved soulmate lamcal, and she wrote of the hail storm she’s felt this week, as we as a global people are pounded with tragedy from the beheading of James Foley, God bless his soul, to the horrors of ferguson, missouri, where two dear friends of mine are decked out in riot gear on the front lines, recording the horrors for the new york times.
dear joan, for that’s her real name, sent along a link to an article about James Foley, and she added this prayer, aptly written by rabbi harold kushner. did she know i’d been rinsed by rain? she must have…..in that way we speak to beloved souls without words sometimes…..
here is the poem, a prayer for all the world.
“A Prayer for the World”
“Let the rain come and wash away the ancient grudges,
the bitter hatreds held and nurtured over generations.
Let the rain wash away the memory of the hurt, the neglect.
Then let the sun come out and fill the sky with rainbows.
Let the warmth of the sun heal us wherever we are broken.
Let it burn away the fog so that we can see each other clearly,
So that we can see beyond labels, beyond accents, gender or skin color.
Let the warmth and brightness of the sun melt our selfishness,
So that we can share the joys and feel the sorrow of our neighbors.
And let the light of the sun be so strong that we will see all
people as our neighbors.
Let the earth, nourished by rain, bring forth flowers to
surround us with beauty.
And let the mountains teach our hearts to reach upward to heaven.”
– Rabbi Harold S. Kushner
it’s gonna be perfect. you must be so proud! enjoy the moment. 🙂
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thanks, darlin. almost at the glorious part, where all the months of worrying melt away and you’re in the moment and you feel yourself lifting off the ground, and suddenly your heart is doing flutters and your breath is coming out in great gusts of deepest gratitude. i love that part. xoxox
Amen. Amen, amen, amen. Go and be safe and blessed. Lots and lots of love and hugging arms around all of you, reaching all the way to Grandpa east. I’m remembering T being frightened of going away and coming through it amazingly well, and so he shall at the bimah. Mazel tov!
love you, dear nancy. i will be leaning into your arms. and i will let T know there are arms ready to hold him at the knees. xoxox
Mazel tov to Ted and congratulations to mama and papa on raising such a fine young man!
bless you, sweetheart. in high gear now: a bit of flooding in the basement. a couple missed flights. even more delayed ones. but there are wonderful angels at every bend, and they are lifting us to that glorious place where it’s all on autopilot, filled with heart. xoxo
What a beautiful rain-song. Ahhhh. . . Lovely!
Sending all my best wishes for a joyous celebration!
And thank you, so much, for posting “A Prayer for the World.” Amen, my friend. xox