it’s quiet season in my house. in my soul, actually.
it’s odd then, when i tiptoe outside in the dawn and hear the world achatter. the winged choristers — robin and sparrow and cardinal — are having at it, calling out from limb to bough to bush. staking turf. declaring the early hours of starting all over again, survival of the species, the No. 1 task on the vernal to-do list. it’s what happens when the globe tips toward the sun, the angle draws nearer, draws shorter; the light longer, not so thin anymore.
it happens to all of us, one season or another. we’re out of sync with the world beyond our window sill. i’m still deep in the burrows of winter. but the world wants to shake off its slumber, awaken.
i’m not ready yet.
i will be. i have no doubt.
but not yet.
now, i am curled under blankets, turning pages, soaking up the words of other quiet souls. and so, when i cracked open a book of poems the other day, i nearly dissolved into tears, into the mystery of grace, of feeling tapped on the wall of my heart, with sacred whisper.
i was turning slowly through the pages of mary oliver, my patron saint of poetry. i was inhaling her latest infusion of wisdom distilled, of heaven on earth, of sacred scripture rising up from out of the dawn, out of the trail through the woods where the poet keeps pace.
i read, among other words, these:
there are moments that cry out to be fulfilled.
like, telling someone you love them.
or giving your money away, all of it.
your heart is beating, isn’t it?
you’re not in chains, are you?
there is nothing more pathetic than caution
when headlong might save a life,
even, possibly, your own.
then i turned a few pages, and stumbled on this:
God, or the gods, are invisible, quite
understandable. But holiness is visible,
i pulled out my pen. the sound of ink scratching along sheaf of paper, the only perceptible noise interrupting the season of silence.
and now i’ve shared my silence with you.
may your week be blessed. silent or not.
mary oliver’s latest slim volume of prayer poem is titled, felicity (penguin press, 2015). the words above, first, from the poem, “moments,” and finally, a few lines from “leaves and blossoms along the way.”