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December 8, 2023

quiet is the way . . .

a meditation on the quiet way…

i begin with a poem that took my breath away. 

Nativity
by Kenneth Steven 

When the miracle happened it was not
with bright light or fire—
but a farm door with the thick smell of sheep
and a wind tugging at the shutters.

There was no sign the world had changed for ever
or that God had taken place;
just a child crying softly in a corner,
and the door open, for those who came to find.

and i couple that with this line from TS Eliot’s “East Coker”:

The only wisdom we can hope to acquire
Is the wisdom of humility: humility is endless.

the message is so countercultural: be humble; in quiet, come. “a farm door with the thick smell of sheep / and a wind tugging at the shutters / … just a child crying softly in a corner / and the door open …” a more earthly, rough-sawn tableau it might be hard to conjure. it is a tableau that aims only to find its place in the quiet folds of the depths of a pitch-black night. it begs not for attention. but its aim is a fiery transformation, a redefinition of love, love made flesh, love lived through every breath.

the sufi mystics take it even further. purity of heart, they teach us, is when the I pronoun dissipates in the sun in the way of early morning fog: not disappearing but becoming translucent; it melts away. 

the highest level of holiness in Islam is Iḥsān, defined as “spiritual excellence,” and Omid Safi, the Islamic scholar who mesmerized me this week, teaches that without gentleness, without kindness, there is no loveliness. and loveliness is the divine attribute that defines and permeates Iḥsān. to live in loveliness, in selfless purity of heart, is to summit the holy mountain.   

according to Islamic teaching, when the angel Gabriel asked The Prophet to define Iḥsān, or spiritual excellence, The Prophet answered: “Excellence is to worship Allah as if you see Him, for though you do not see Him, He surely sees you.” (translation from Muslim Ibn al-Ḥajjāj al-Qushayrī)

and what do i, a simple soul of 66 whose spiritual life was put to the fire in the wake of a springtime diagnosis, what do i take all this to mean? to live a quiet life, aspiring to be pure of heart, meaning to exercise my every breath toward tender, gentle loving. learning to allow my I to dissipate into the morning fog. to turn the other cheek, yes. always. to exorcise the hurtful impulse. to love through my last breath. 

** you might want to know more about kenneth steven. and wasn’t i surprised/not surprised to discover he’s a poet with the celtic flowing richly through his veins. this morsel from his website might find you curling up with him on an otherwise chilly winter’s afternoon, one in which the ashen sky stirs you to tuck yourself beneath the contours of a fuzzy afghan that tickles your nose:

“Kenneth Steven is first and always a poet. To survive as a literary author he’s had to become many other things as a writer – he translated the Norwegian novel The Half Brother, he’s a children’s picture book and story writer, he’s an essayist and a feature writer – but it’s poetry and the love of poetry that lies at the heart of it all. His volume of selected poems Iona appeared from Paraclete Press in the States a couple of years ago. His numerous collections have sold many thousands of copies, and he has a strong name as a poet thanks to the poetry-related features he’s written and presented over long years: his programme ‘A Requiem for St Kilda’ having won a Sony Gold for Radio 4.

“His poetry has been inspired primarily by place. He grew up on the edge of the Scottish Highlands with a profound awareness of that world: his mother’s people were Gaelic speakers from Wester and Easter Ross. It’s the wildscape of Highland Scotland that pours through his pen.”

where did you find quiet this week?

hanukkah began last night, and at our house our skinny candles were shimmied into and kindled in the noah’s ark menorah first unwrapped when our firstborn was but a few months old. all these years––thirty now––giraffe and bear and walrus have done their part in carrying our thoughts to the miracles of light that flickers even in the darkest darkness. even in a year such as this when bombs rock the holy land. 

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April 2, 2007

holy, holy week

in our house, it is the gospel according to matthew, and the seder infused by elie. and this, by the blessing of the calendar, is one of those wham-bam weeks.

we’ve got it all, and weave and flow from exodus to last supper, from parting of red sea to rending of blackened sunless sky. we dash the house of bread, but then bring on the easter baskets.

long long ago, we set our own pesach dispensation for easter sunday. even when it’s in the midst of the eight days of no leavened grains, we part the matzo for a sprinkling of chocolate, for jelly beans, in the easter basket.

i was musing that wednesday is the only day of this whole week not rich in something jewish or catholic, and thus i would need to consult the koran to divine my depth for the day.

it is, very much, a fact that the interlacing of the passion of jesus, a passion set in history at the cusp of passover, and the jewish remembrance of the exile from egypt, is, for me, a rich one.

after 25 years of living them on top of and through each other, i have come to see shadows, understand subtleties that would have escaped me were it not for my being drawn, in love and faith, to a man who is, himself, a son of the tribe of israel.

and so it was that we all, the four of us, two jews, one catholic and one just learning both, walked into a church courtyard yesterday where palms were swaying in the air, the priest’s red robe was billowing–nay, blowing–up and nearly over his head from behind, the winds were whipping so unrelentingly, a red bird’s plumage in flight. the red cloth punctuating the otherwise gray day.

the priest, one i’d known long ago, one who’d grown older and even wiser, and though he’d grown bent, never bent from his focus on that core of what i call dorothy day catholicism that sees peace and justice as the central burning flame of a religion he won’t let go down in flames.

he was in the midst of reading the passion of jesus when he looked up, looked out at the sea of waving palms, and implored the multi-colored crowd: “consider and tend the wounds of the world as if they were your own—-for they are.”

that then, i gulped, is the mission of this week.

i came home, sat down to consider elie wiesel, the nobel-prize winning poet and seer who survived the holocaust and will not, bless him, let us forget.

“i love passover,” he wrote, “because for me it is a cry against indifference, a cry for compassion.”

wiesel wrote those words in perhaps the only autographed book (certainly the only autograph that fills me with awe) on my shelves, “a passover haggadah,” (simon & schuster) his 1993 commentary and guide through the seder, or meal of remembrance, the retelling of the exodus story, that is the centerpiece of passover.

“sometimes the sheer speed of events makes us reel,” wiesel also wrote in the haggadah. “history advances at a dizzying pace. man has conquered space, but not his own heart. have we learned nothing? it seems so. witness the wars that rage all over the globe, the acts of terror that strike down the innocent, the children who are dying of hunger and disease in africa and asia every day. why is there so much hatred in the world? why is there so much indifference to hatred, to suffering, to the anguish of others?”

wiesel asks. the old priest implores.

because i am catholic, because i spent many years on my knees studying the 10-foot-high crucifix that hung before me in the church where i grew up, i don’t even have to close my eyes to see the wounds that i’ve been asked to dab with cool and healing waters.

and so i walk, i stumble, through this most holy week.

what questions do you carry into this blessed string of holy days? what thoughts do you put to those questions? those callings?


p.s. some really fine thoughts–really fine–have been tacked onto meanders in recent days, thanks to the brilliant souls who keep pulling up chairs. bless them! don’t forget to take a look back and keep the conversation flowing. just because we move on to a new meander does not ever mean the case is closed on a meander past. in fact, we might have drummed up a real-live beekeeper to tell us a thing or three about the heartbreak in the hives….
p.s.s. welcome back from break, all of you who flew away…we held down the fort just fine….

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